What's on your mind?

[RelentlessOblivion]

Does that happen often? Do swing back and forth constantly? Are your high periods accompanied with any sort of hyperactive behavior? With me I was never anything other than depressed. I'm a good actor so I was able to hide it.

Nope, for the most part I'm on the slightly down side, it's actually odd for me to be up for any length of time.

[GratuitousTK]

Nope' date=' for the most part I'm on the slightly down side, it's actually odd for me to be up for any length of time.[/quote'] Yeah I'm pretty much the same way. I'm talking in the present tense because it never goes away. I still catch myself staring off into a corner for several minutes at a time feeling nothing but worthlessness and undeservedness. I ask my future wife why she loves me at least once a week, and she is a very sweet woman so she gives me a very sweet answer and then a kiss. It'll never go away you just have to find a way to manage it. Be that counseling or medication or both.

[RelentlessOblivion]

It's tough, I think for me at least part of this is caused by my environment, I pretty much hate my step-dad and his constant need to make me feel like the best thing I can do with my life is end it. Perhaps moving out will improve things for me.

[GratuitousTK]

It's tough' date=' I think for me at least part of this is caused by my environment, I pretty much hate my step-dad and his constant need to make me feel like the best thing I can do with my life is end it. Perhaps moving out will improve things for me.[/quote'] Yes I would recommend getting away from anyone that can trigger these episodes. Its perfectly fine to divorce yourself of family members if they actively try to poison your life. If a relationship with a close family member(sister, brother, mother, father etc,) is toxic to you mental state, then end the relationship.

[RelentlessOblivion]

I'm finally in a position where it's possible to get out of that environment.

[GratuitousTK]

I wish you well. It took me until my late twenties to figure my shit out, but you appear to want figure yours out while your still quite young. It a pretty tough road to hoe. Expect a lot of false starts and backslides.

[RelentlessOblivion]

That's just me, I'm extremely driven by nature and when I set my mind to something I don't let anything stand in my way, depression will not beat me nor will it prevent me from the pursuit of my goals. I will complete my law degree, I will take my cycling as far as possible, I will be in my own place by the end of the year, and I will relearn how to play the guitar because I still want to record and release my own music (though probably won't play live).

[mindy6158]

The kind of insight that gets you an MSW' date=' ladies and gentlemen.[/quote'] Beating around the bush is not my forte:D

[Frostaudn]

Currently sitting at the press lounge @ Graspop. Interviews went really well and have seen a lot of great shows. Life is good sometimes Verstuurd vanaf mijn GT-I9505 met Tapatalk

[RelentlessOblivion]

Cool, kinda jealous without even knowing the lineup, hope you had fun mate.

[FatherAlabaster]

Happy Father's Day to BAN, Gorbo, and any other dads on the forum. Might be a BS Hallmark holiday, but having a child is a wonderful gift that's always worth celebrating.

[RelentlessOblivion]

I imagine you would every day though. I know I would If I became a dad. Having three younger brothers (two with serious attitude issues) has been a bit of a deterrent but the other day there was the cutest kid ever with her mom on the bus. Came over asking all these questions about my guide dog. Now I'm starting to think being a parent some day would be pretty damn cool.

[Parker]

Zombie with a knife Chaos rules supreme today Ooops, diarrhea

[FatherAlabaster]

Finally, instead of alternating between ads for Single Arab Women and the Is He Cheating On You service (answer: no), I'm seeing banners for something everyone can enjoy: hot tubs. I love a hot tub. Let's keep this going.

[jfk36]

I just seem to get lots of adverts for Swiss watches.

[jfk36]

Spot the odd one out

[RelentlessOblivion]

I seem to be getting ads for cheap car insurance...yeah that's something I totally need hey.

[BlutAusNerd]

I seem to be getting ads for cheap car insurance...yeah that's something I totally need hey.

If anybody decided it would be a good idea to put you behind my wheel, I would hope that they would charge you a ton for insurance. Sent from my HTC One_M8 using Tapatalk

[FatherAlabaster]

The show promoter just put up video of our set, I posted it in the band thread if any of you guys are interested in checking it out: http://metalforum.com/promote-your-band/4315-black-harvest-6.html#post133487

[Iceni]

Off to NM tomorrow! -well, technically today since it's 12:02AM but still. Been watching Akame ga Kill and it's an odd one. Lots to talk about with the show, but I really like it visually. Took the great design sense and vivid, varied color palette from Fairy Tail, and the oddball eclectic look from Soul Eater. It also took the good fights and the blood from Soul Eater too, so...basically the best of both worlds. Plenty of weaknesses but I'm liking it quite a bit so far.

[RelentlessOblivion]

Have fun Iceman. You do know what fun is right?

[Iceni]

Have fun Iceman. You do know what fun is right?

It's a type of drill bit used by copper miners, if I remember aright. I mean, people are always telling me to 'have fun' but all I've got is a pocket full of ore and once again no clue what everyone's on about.

[RelentlessOblivion]

I worry about you my friend, I really do, little surprise your favourite genres of music follow a very specific, predictable, and organised formula...

[Sugar Pill]

I can't put in a nose screw. I'm so frustrated.

[RelentlessOblivion]

Sooooooo first time on the trainer doing anything more then turning the legs over gently since nationals. Bloody hell am I unfit and the hammy tendon still isn't quite right as I learned about 40 minutes in. Still felt good to be putting effort in for a change.