Sardonicist

After listening to the latest metal acquisition a few times dissatisfaction returns, a yearning for new sounds brings a state of dissatisfaction, fantasies about how awesome it would be to own what ever other albums, band discographies on whatever media occupy daydreams. The irritation grows until another purchase is made and a few moments of satisfaction and relief is gained. This is very much spirituality. Reading the next book that will get you to that imaginary state, feeling high while reading the book, coming down once finishing it. Spiritual retreats, religious events, meditation practices, every high being followed by that same old emptiness, the next purchase will bring me permanent enlightenment though right? How cool would it be to fly overseas, sit on a beach and drink martinis? This would really make my life worth living.

I am 100% converted to atheism. This survival dream we call life is all lies and manipulation. Many plants and animals uses deception, especially humans. Humans have to navigate advertising, education, news/political media, society and dating, none of this exists without deception. Without deception there is no economy. Millions of non religious people get permanently manipulated into falsehoods that cause years of suffering and death. Marketing companies sell superstitions to atheists.

The problem is that atheism and secularism are no less corrupt, superstitious, manipulative and ridiculous than religion. The Human Brain Has been Getting Smaller Since the Stone Age

I take pride in not purchasing any personal care products with the exception of the cheapest disposable razors. Hot water and cheap razors for shaving. Soap is completely pointless for everyone not getting covered in engine oil or something like that. Shaving cream is fucking bullshit. Beard oil! The fuck do I want to oil my beard for?

Well he did record Belus and Fallen which are excellent. Then there is Umskiptar which I am sure is very good too but I am never in the mood to listen to it. From The Depths of Darkness is not interesting without young Vargs vocals, was probably a blast to re-record those songs though. I've always found Burzum very easy to listen to.

Anti-Christ and Under The Sign Of Hell are essential. Then Quantos Possunt Ad Satanitatem Trahunt and Instinctus Bestalis are excellent. Pentagram is very good but the vocals are a bit grating.

Immortal's Blizzard Beasts was the one that hooked me, still my favorite Immortal album, it always sounds excellent to my ears. Apparently everyone including Immortal hates the sound of Blizzard Beasts.

Johann Sebastian Bach - Kay Johannsen - [Organ Chorales from the Neumeister Collection - disc 1 #10] With Bach, unlike other classical music, I don't have to strain my ears, get frustrated, turn the stereo up, get my ear drums blown, turn the stereo down then stretch my ears and turn the volume up... and this is good. Severe tinnitus makes appreciation of very quiet classical music a bit challenging.

1967: Dire Famine Forecast By 1975 1969: Everyone Will Disappear In a Cloud Of Blue Steam By 1989 (1969) 1970: Urban Citizens Will Require Gas Masks by 1985 1970: Nitrogen buildup Will Make All Land Unusable 1970: Decaying Pollution Will Kill all the Fish 1970s: Killer Bees 1970: Ice Age By 2000 1970: America Subject to Water Rationing By 1974 and Food Rationing By 1980 1971: New Ice Age Coming By 2020 or 2030 1972: New Ice Age By 2070 1974: Space Satellites Show New Ice Age Coming Fast 1974: Another Ice Age? 1974: Ozone Depletion a ‘Great Peril to Life 1976: Scientific Consensus Planet Cooling, Famines imminent 1978: No End in Sight to 30-Year Cooling Trend 1988: Regional Droughts (that never happened) in 1990s 1988: Temperatures in DC Will Hit Record Highs 1988: Maldive Islands will Be Underwater by 2018 (they’re not) 1989: Rising Sea Levels will Obliterate Nations if Nothing Done by 2000 1989: New York City’s West Side Highway Underwater by 2019 (it’s not) 2000: Children Won’t Know what Snow Is 2002: Famine In 10 Years If We Don’t Give Up Eating Fish, Meat, and Dairy 2004: Britain will Be Siberia by 2024 2008: Arctic will Be Ice Free by 2018 2008: Climate Genius Al Gore Predicts Ice-Free Arctic by 2013 2009: Climate Genius Prince Charles Says we Have 96 Months to Save World 2009: UK Prime Minister Says 50 Days to ‘Save The Planet From Catastrophe’ 2009: Climate Genius Al Gore Moves 2013 Prediction of Ice-Free Arctic to 2014 2013: Arctic Ice-Free by 2015 2014: Only 500 Days Before ‘Climate Chaos’ 1968: Overpopulation Will Spread Worldwide 1970: World Will Use Up All its Natural Resources 1966: Oil Gone in Ten Years 1972: Oil Depleted in 20 Years 1977: Department of Energy Says Oil will Peak in 90s 1980: Peak Oil In 2000 1996: Peak Oil in 2020 2002: Peak Oil in 2010 2005 : Manhattan Underwater by 2015 How does anyone even still care about apocalyptic reporting?

Look up the channels Martin Butler and Corporeal Fantasy for the hardest philosophy. The videos aren't that long but you could make your own playlist.

I am an effect, a slave to the circumstances of existence, I am not responsible for my opinions.

The best opinions stink but you can't choose your opinions.

Faith in humanity is not required or relevant to anything.

Yeah physical discomfort is still beyond my understanding, the Vikings overcame it and there was Jesus Christ getting himself nailed to a cross for kicks. I did post on here about drinking scotch one time, that was the only drunk I've had over the past nearly 12 months, I was high on opium at the same time because I've going to drink then why not, but it was only one slip up so I don't count it and assert that I have been sober for nearly 12 months. I watch philosophy videos on you tube, these are better than drugs. Shrinking consciousness and being unaware of awareness is definitely the way.

Almyrkvi - Umbra Unaussprechlichen Kulten - Keziah Lilith Medea

The Chasm -A conscious creation from the isolated domain.

The only problem with later/current black metal is that I like all of it and I can't deal with that much music.

So humans look at the world and anthropomorphize it, then become afraid that it is going to die, desiring that it would live forever, but despair that it is on the verge of destruction, so they wish that humans would disappear so that the world that isn't alive, that exists only in the brains of humans, that human's only imagine exists, can survive. All this so that everything not human can carry on eating everything to keep everything going, which would lead to the evolution of a new intelligent animal that utilizes energy and allegedly causes a climate apocalypse. Never mind that natural climate change orders of magnitude greater than anything they are talking about happen all the time. If humans abandon energy now the ultimate catastrophe is still guaranteed to end all problems forever eventually. I guess there is also a desire for death in all of this to. Better to never have been. Non existence prevents all suffering. What human goodness, rationality and long term survival even look like? A philosophical transformation of the media, stop talking to everyone like they are babies, promote anti-natalism, slash health expenditure, provide only euthanasia for the sick and injured. Financial incentive for sterilization and assisted suicide for everyone who chooses non existence for the greater good. Ban babies, forced abortions, shoot children. Is this human goodness, rationality and long term survival? Pol Pot demonstrated that it is possible to walk populations away from technology and back into the stone age. What is with these lockdowns and vaccinations? Wouldn't the plague reduce demand for deadly energy? How is Sweden's carbon footprint?

The Wondrous. Jacques Tourneur - I Walked With A Zombie

Did I say aware of awareness yes I did. biological robots cannot be aware of awareness. A small part of the brain makes self awareness, there is nothing beyond that. Years of contemplating consciousness lead no where. But shift attention to the body, the rest is right.

You told me there is not much that science cannot explain. There is evolutionary psychology, they figure that reality has no use case for survival and procreation. Biology does not evolve the ability to perceive reality. Consciousness only exists so that humans can interact well enough to gather resources for survival and procreation. Self awareness, space and time literally only exist in the animal brain. So what is wondrous about this world? A very high percentage of animals are eaten alive. How long can you stay high on beautiful scenery? The body see's living things and imagines the destruction of these things, realizes that it too will also die, your emotions and concerns about this imaginary climate apocalypse is anxiety about your own death. Human's are 100% nature, human's utilize energy, expecting humans to stop utilizing energy is delusional. Fossil fuels should be utilized by humans, this is obviously the purpose of humans. COP26 is for politicians to live it up, this is the purpose of politicians. When I was a kid there was this old man that hung around outside some shops down the road, he would walk up to people and tell them that the world was ending. Now I am an adult the Government and the Media relentlessly report that the world is ending. Keep on ignoring 50 years of failed catastrophic climate change predictions if that is your thing, personally I don't see anything to worry about. Clearly science cannot predict earths climate.

I hated myself more than anything, the wolf wasn't getting laid, work and money was always scarce and I had no understanding of existence. Christianity and Secular Positivity are the bugs and viruses I was raised on, these induced inaccurate thoughts. Nothing happens for no reason/everything has a cause. I am 100% caused, nothing is my responsibility. This goes for all biological machines. I can not hate biological machines that are caused, no one chooses anything. There are no causeless effects. Now I watch the culture drama and feel nothing. I like my black metal to be from the 1990's and the 2000's. I'm only finding Red Anarchist Black Metal.

My intention is to be emotionally motivated. My emotions are the only complete information. Politics is always incomplete information. Incomplete information is manipulation. There is nothing to be gained by caring about things that I cannot fully know or understand and caring makes no difference. For a while I used information to experience fear and hate as the end goal, fear and hate is very enjoyable, only once these emotions become enjoyable then I stop feeling them, which I suppose is the point, but right now I wish I could read or watch something that would make me feel oppressed and defeated. I am missing my depression and nothing will bring me down.

My parents were broke for a while and a friend of theirs who trapped possums gave us the possums so we had possum stews every night for some months. I do hope I never have to eat possum again. We ate allot of rabbits too, nothing wrong with rabbit meat.

If the computer is on I'm surfing the web and forget about the music. To listen to music I have to turn the computer off. Physical media is required to actually listen to music. Digital downloads are the best for making mixtapes. Mixtapes are my favorite physical media. I figured out I don't want to hear much new metal. The way to keep old albums interesting is mix the songs up. All music sounds better played back off of a cassette tape. I'm intending to make a stack of mixtapes from my vinyl and cd collection, not sure what else to do with my type 4's.