What's on your mind?

[RelentlessOblivion]

Great to hear the new drummer is working out BAN. Yeah I have a post ride stretching routine of about half an hour. I'll be buying some deep heat today which should help loosen up those muscles and relieve the pain.

[BlutAusNerd]

Cool deal' date=' I look forward to hearing your new stuff.[/quote'] I will be interested to see how others feel about our new work. It doesn't make a difference to me, it fulfills my need for artistic expression, but it is a bit different. More funeral doom and death metal in the mix than before, but you will definitely recognize our compositional style, melodic progressions, and riffs. I'm excited to finish up the lyrics and start playing live again, especially with a drummer that actually fits our sound.

[RelentlessOblivion]

Really looking forward to hearing the new stuff BAN.

[Iceni]

All day working on this corruption paper, a little bit boring but it's been going well so far. Two more finals after this and then off home.

[RelentlessOblivion]

So glad my year is over. No study 'til March (possibly longer if things don't go my way)

[mindy6158]

So....slept all day, got home around 4 from having an endoscopy. Was very very nervous, and became even more nervous when he said he found an abnormality and had to take a biopsy...

[BlutAusNerd]

So....slept all day' date=' got home around 4 from having an endoscopy. Was very very nervous, and became even more nervous when he said he found an abnormality and had to take a biopsy...[/quote'] Damn, sorry to hear that. At your age though, I wouldn't worry, any actual issues would be extremely unlikely.

[mindy6158]

Damn' date=' sorry to hear that. At your age though, I wouldn't worry, any actual issues would be extremely unlikely.[/quote'] Thank you, but in a hypochondriacs mind, .000001% chance still means cancer cancer CANCER. Sad but true, I started crying like an idiot when my doctor was telling me, I think I made him feel very uncomfortable..............

[deathstorm]

So....slept all day' date=' got home around 4 from having an endoscopy. Was very very nervous, and became even more nervous when he said he found an abnormality and had to take a biopsy...[/quote'] Get well mindy

[RelentlessOblivion]

It's probably nothing Minds. Try not to stress too much.

[GorboGorboze]

Things are going very well for Nevertanezra' date=' despite that live gig falling through, but I'm sure that more opportunities will come.[/quote'] ...And when those opportunities come, I hope you will put up a youtube vid of the performance. I understand your not wanting to put out demos or new and as yet not perfected recordings, but video of gigs would not fit into that category.

[shikawkee]

Hope everything turns out okay Mindy.

[FatherAlabaster]

Yeah Mindy, try not to stress about it. I bet that doctor just knew how much you like to worry, and was just trying to be nice and give you something to worry about.

...And when those opportunities come' date=' I hope you will put up a youtube vid of the performance. I understand your not wanting to put out demos or new and as yet not perfected recordings, but video of gigs would not fit into that category.[/quote'] I agree, it would be really cool to see/hear what's going on with your new lineup. On my mind: thirteen years ago today, Chuck Schuldiner died, too young IMO. Not many people have had the kind of influence he did. I know what I'll be listening to today.

[deathstorm]

Yeah last week dimebag darrell passed away 10 years ago by that asshole who murdered him

[GorboGorboze]

Thank you' date=' but in a hypochondriacs mind, .000001% chance still means cancer cancer CANCER. Sad but true, I started crying like an idiot when my doctor was telling me, I think I made him feel very uncomfortable..............[/quote'] What would happen if you started every day by contemplating dying from cancer, or whatever. I'm suggesting a meditation on your mortality. Based on what I've heard, everyone will eventually die, so maybe you could wrap your head around that fact as a given, and get a little more comfortable with it. I hope you find this useful. oh, one other thing... Would you like to try thinking of yourself as a strong fighter ready to take on anything rather then as a victim susceptible to disease and illness. That might help. The very real health threat you are facing is the stress you cause your self by tripping about stuff like this.

[BlutAusNerd]

...And when those opportunities come' date=' I hope you will put up a youtube vid of the performance. I understand your not wanting to put out demos or new and as yet not perfected recordings, but video of gigs would not fit into that category.[/quote'] We're not opposed to doing a demo, that has been the plan for a while. When we were going to record it originally, Edgar had just joined on drums, so we were going to just program drums for the guitars. The guy that recorded us brought the wrong microphone, so we didn't end up keeping the session, so we decided to wait until Edgar was up to speed and record with real drums. As soon as he was, Mitch started coming back to practices, so we've been getting him up to speed. I think that we should now be able to do the demo in the coming weeks, and have it represent us as a whole, as opposed to just Mike and myself. I usually wait until I have a recording to finish lyrics and vocal lines, so I can have something that I can just play different parts over and over again in my ear to fit the phrasing. I'm sure that we'll also have someone record at least one of our live performances when we get back to doing them again. The failed opportunity would have been opening for Incantation and Funerus, but they were not planning on coming this way on their tour schedule. Edgar has been booking shows, so he made them an offer, and they said that if they ended up booking anything in Colorado or Nevada that they would book our date too, but both fell through. It seems like we've been getting more tours through here recently, so I'm sure we'll have something else come through here that we can put our names on.

[mindy6158]

What would happen if you started every day by contemplating dying from cancer' date=' or whatever. I'm suggesting a meditation on your mortality. Based on what I've heard, everyone will eventually die, so maybe you could wrap your head around that fact as a given, and get a little more comfortable with it. I hope you find this useful. oh, one other thing... Would you like to try thinking of yourself as a strong fighter ready to take on anything rather then as a victim susceptible to disease and illness. That might help. The very real health threat you are facing is the stress you cause your self by tripping about stuff like this.[/quote'] That is really good advice, but, sadly I have tried thinking those ways, and it does not help. I have been to two counselors and they did not help. I am thinking I need to try one more time, possibly try a clinical social worker instead or a psychologist and NOT a counselor. People have asked me what I worry most about before, and it is not so much the dying part, it is the slow, painful, suffering, hair falling out, cannot walk, etc etc etc that plagues my mind when thinking about getting cancer, not to mention, I have done nothing with my life yet, except go to school........

[Iceni]

Finally done my paper. I'm very glad I did the outline when the professor gave us the option to do so, I'd probably have crapped myself these last few days if I hadn't.

[RelentlessOblivion]

That is really good advice' date=' but, sadly I have tried thinking those ways, and it does not help. I have been to two counselors and they did not help. I am thinking I need to try one more time, possibly try a clinical social worker instead or a psychologist and NOT a counselor. People have asked me what I worry most about before, and it is not so much the dying part, it is the slow, painful, suffering, hair falling out, cannot walk, etc etc etc that plagues my mind when thinking about getting cancer, not to mention, I have done nothing with my life yet, except go to school........[/quote'] Something I doubt you will want to hear Minds: people who have high stress levels over an extended period of time are statistically more likely to encounter many health problems including, but not limited to, heart disease, mental illness, and cancer. So the more you freak out about a statistically insignificant (according to your own words) chance of actually having a serious health problem the more likely you are to encounter them down the road. Just when you were starting to think I wasn't a know-it-all eh?

[~Mere~]

So apparently my youtube account was hacked. Got an email saying that I have replies for "my" comment on The Boner Song. WTF? Oh yeah, last I checked it was also one of the top comments. Awesome.

[deathstorm]

Mere I think your. Teenage sons. hack it lol

[~Mere~]

Yeah you'd think lol But I only use youtube with my phone/ipod and no ones uses those but me & they're pass code protected. And the vid was not in my youtube history either. Who knows...

[deathstorm]

Oops maybe. My inner hacke. Hacked it. Just kidding

[RelentlessOblivion]

Reminds me of a few years back when my facebook was hacked and used to troll the page of my favourite AFL team just after a player died in a tragic accident.

[~Mere~]

Oops maybe. My inner hacke. Hacked it. Just kidding

I actually questioned my boys first and it didn't seem like it was them, checked all devices and pc to see if I was signed in by chance. Nothing. I reported it. It did make me laugh though, not the song cause I've never heard it, just the fact of it being the boner song lol