Tortuga

Farmer

Breaking The Law - Judas Preist

I do not get to be called a guy that much, esspecially considering that I a woman...but no worries, I have made my fair share of online gender mistakes, too I actually wish I had a camera on me in the exact moment that I realized that the guy I saw might not have been of flesh and blood... at least not in this dimension. Problem is that that one second he was standing on the pavement and the next he litterally dissappeared into the wall...even if I did have a camera on me, I wouldn't have had the time to take a picture. Besides ghost picture these days are hardly to be regarded as evidence of any kind, you do not have to be a genius in order to make a good ghost photo using Photoshop or the likes. I could easily make one with in half an hour...it is really that easy! And thank you for your condolences.

Thank you

My thoughts exactly!

@WillI do not do drugs, drink alcohol, take any medication...and I watch what I eat. Nor was I deprived of sleep, in fact I was wide awake. My cat did pee a bit on me while she was dying, but I washed my kimono the day after. So other than feeling sad and lonely, I was not feeling light headed or anything. I know I was not dreaming, I always wake up when the most interesting part is about to happen... quite annoying really ...but the interesting thing did actually happen. But as for what happened afterwards and on to... @BalorWell, I can remember checking the fence again, trying to find some logical explaination, because even though I do believe in ghosts then neither am I the first to scream "Ghost!!!!" every time I see a shadow. Then I went inside my flat, cooked some food and ate, watched some Youtube, and went to bed while thinking about the odd experience just hours before. I had just blown out the candle on my bedside table and then I heard the small meow. Many have suggested that it was my cat, Luna, comming back to say her final farewells. Because to be honest, even weeks after I still think about if she is okay and things like that. It is the thing about this guy, the ex-neighbour lookalike that really puzzles me. I have sensed ghosts before, but never seen one with my naked eyes. No rattling chains or transparent apparitions... just a very solid rockabilly guy in builder's clothes. I did not even sense a chill, but that might have to do with that it was outdoors. I just hope that he isen't dead, too. @WillThank you for your condolences

I experienced something really strange a few weeks ago and I cannot really "decide" if it was a ghost that I saw or a glitch in reality: two dimensions overlapping for short while. Or some third explaination. The back ground story is that it happened merely two days after my cat, my companion through thick and thin for almost 20 years, died in my arms. And as anyone who has ever lost a beloved furry friend will know, the grief feels almost unbearable! To comfort the both of us I told my cat, just before she crossed the rainbow bridge that she was going to Freya in Folkevagn and that everything would be just fine. A day went by and I ran out of food and on my way back from the supermarket, I saw something that at least I cannot explain!!!! I have lived in my current home for almost 11 years now, I have seen neighbours come and go, and know every creak and crack in the building, so to speak. And on my way home from the supermarket I saw a guy who looked a lot like a neighbour that I used to have: a rockabilly guy in his 20's with huge side burns. We were not friends, but we used to greet and talk with each other when ever we met in the yard or washing celler and he seemed like a very nice chap. Anyway I saw him turning around a corner and walking a few meters infront of me. He was dressed in workman's clothes like he was a builder or something like that, the time was around 6.30 pm, so I just assumed he was on his way home from work...and he was as solid looking as any living person or person belonging in this dimension! We walked down the street (he had not seen me and I am a tad to reserved to come up from behind to say hi to someone I never really knew and had not seen in years) whilst I was thinking about what to do with Luna's body, which I had wrapped up with some of her favorite belongings and amuletts, and put in the freezer for the time being. And then suddenly as what looked a hell of a lot like my ex-neighbour comes to where the fence to our yard ends and the outer walls of the building I live in begin...he turns, faces the wall, takes two steps towards the wall, and dissapeares!!! Litterally walks "through" the wall!!!!! Had it happened just a meter further away, I would have been able to convince myself that he might have opened the front door to the building itself so quickly that I had not noticed it...but that was not what happened! So the next thing I did...after closing my mouth again...was to speed up my phase and check the fence. From his appearence, I thought he might had been working on or putting up a new fence or something which I have been too grief stricken not to notice, forgot a tool, and had come back to fetch it. But no, it was the same old and intact fence with a space between it and the outer wall of the building, but that space is only a few centimeters wide and had he climbed over the fence, then I would have noticed it. And a fully grown man of flesh and blood simply does not dissapear into a wall!!!! And he "walked through the wall" which leads into my kitchen, where Luna's remains were lying in the freezer. Later on, when I was falling asleep I heard a cat meowing, but this might just have been my imagination. But as for seeing my ex-neighbour and what then happened. Explaination, theories...anyone?

To me, negativity is despair, sadness, being manipulated, and toxic relationships/people...but not anger!!! And I think that the vast majority of people have experienced at least some of the above at some point in their lives. Some deal with it by finding comfort in drugs and alcohol, some just learn to live with it, some copy the behavior of those abusing them to in, out of sheer frustration, kick those who are below in the pecking order...and then there are those who find a much healthier way to deal with the shyte life offers you by using the arts as an outlet...in this case metal music! There is nothing negative about metal music...it has never made me feel abused, manipulated, or decieved. There is a lot of brainwashing, toxicity, and abuse going in this at many times screwed up worlds of ours, but if that is what one craves then all one needs to do is to read a news site or turn on the T.V...not listen to metal! On my music blog which due to certain circumstances is a bit dead at the moment, I wrote about goth music, another to many, dark genre. To me darkness is not negativity, it is creativness, self expression -and awareness etc. it is not always but in many cases a very healthy way to deal with life's hurdles etc. The people who are really suffering are those who are so scared of the darkness that they let bright illusions lead them astray!

Well, I must be sleeping comfy under a rock somewhere, because I have never heard of the above.

Geek

Streets

That is exactly the reason why I left the black metal scene!!! I was sick and tired of people complaning their arses of at every single gig!!!!! I can remember my last black metal gig: Satyricon in the early 2000's...I made a quick stop in the bar area and saw some female aquaintances sitting and looking miserable while complaning about the music, I asked them why the hell they were there...blank stares all around, and I desided that I have had enough! I have never been a tomboy and being an outsider in an already very underground scene was just a tad too lonely, even for my liking. So I decided voluntary to go into the shadows for a few years. Funny enough, I do not recall anyone acting the same way previous to the late 1990's at gigs or mayby I was some what blisfully unaware of this! A few years went by and I went to see Crashdiet with a what I thought was a friend...and he complained his arse off during the whole gig. He almost ruined the whole experience for me! I do not know if people even realize this: but complaining your arse at a gig is like talking about divorce rates at a wedding. If you don't like the music and band, then why not just leave...or stuff a thick sock down your throat!!!! Second most annoying people at gigs: people who insists on having a lengthy conversation, while you are trying to focus on the music.

Funny enough, I will turn 49 come September and I have, both physically and mentally, never felt better. I do exercise a lot, but I actually really enjoy it. I hit rock bottom in my early 30's and began to feel old and feeling miserable about it, but instead of staying down there, somehow I managed to climb all the way up again. But with that said: had I not been exercising several times a week, then I would most likely feel a lot different, both in body and mind, I have a tendency to depressions and exercising keeps them at bay! And I used to hate my baby face (looking 12 when you were 25 really sucked) but now I love it The problem I have now is that when I tell people that I can remember watching Headbangers Ball back in the 80's and early 90's, then I am accused of lying, people say like "You cannot remember that, you were watching kid's T.V and fast a sleep in bed, when Headbangers was on" and I am all like "Was not!!!" Another problem is other people's attitude towards me exercise a lot and eating/drinking healthy. I could never dream of dictating other people's exercise and eating/drinking habits. I assume that anyone past the age of 14 or so is aware of the fact that your body is your responsability and since I am not anyone's mother, then I mind my own business. But I have experienced peoples cutting their strings to me, because I am too fit or something like that.Spending 1-2 hours every early morning and not being too fond of cakes and junk food is as apparently enough to scare many away!

Stupidity

The most significant reason for me prefering CD's instead of downloading music is that most of the times I simply do not feel like being online when listening to music. The reasons for this is numerous, but even a lit screen from a smartphone can be damn distracting. Also I am terrible at multi tasking online: I do not know why but I just cannot write/read and listen to music at the same time. But it is not because that I am techno shy. I love using YouTube to discover/rediscover music and bands or to use it as a substitue when my CD player or a CD has worn down and needs to be replaced. Vinyls however, I do not really miss them. Fragile things that would scratch just by looking at them. I did like the covers however, I have been known to buy a record based on the cover alone...that is how I discovered W.A.S.P back in the day

I am eating Falu Korv...a glutenfree sausage. That might all seem like a noveltry had it not been for the fact that Falu Korv is as deep grounded in Swedish cousin as pizza is in Italien cousine. Taste fantastic

Snowy Shaw (on YouTube) - Black Funeral

For me it is just another Friday. However we could need a new rebel wandering our streets!!!! I admit that I do have a smartphone (my one and only device to go online at the moment). But I have really got a love/hate relationship with esspecially smartphones and tablets!!!!! The reason for this is that they are turning what is seems EVERBODY into mindless and controlled zombies!!!!! Everbody seem so bloody conformed today!!!! The late 2010's remind me a bit of what you can see on vids about the mid 1970's on YouTube: the rebellion of the late 1960's is over, now all return to your slumber, and be good little slaves! There is hardly any rebellion anymore apart from SJWs online and Anitifa who are funded by a billionaire...in other words paid "anarchists" who demonstrate when told to. Almost everbody else, young and old, and sitting every where with hunched backs, a slightly droppy low lip, and with their noses stuck in a smartphone or tablet checking their latest crucial message or post on FB, whilst at the same time giving away the most minute detail of their private lives to unknown organisations and allowing shadowy figures to track them everywhere. It is just like that 1984 movie...Big Brother is watching people and people are gladly allowing this to happen. It is a fucking slave mentality!!!! And what really saddens me is that teens and people in their early 20's also choose to go with flow...just like in the mid 1970's! Like when I think back to when I was a teenager myself, it would have been my parent's wet dream to be able to track me down and come in contact with me when ever they wanted to...but thank the gods and goddesses, that they could not do that..or I would really have felt controlled and restricted!!!! Also I am glad that no one could see where I was using Google maps and me accidently pressing the "show your current location"...it was nobody elses business that I was shagging some Norweigian punk guy on a cemetary in Copenhagen...and certainly not Mark Zuckerberg's or the local cops' business!!!! It is not because I am against new technology, on the contrary...I love forums such as this one, I love YouTube, online music shops, and that I do not need to get a T.V to actually watch T.V but can do so on my smartphone. Also I am looking forward to when the driverless cars become more available. But I just cannot stand this zombiefication of society. The general populus seem not to feel pressured to comform anymore, in fact they are doing it so willingly to such an extent that hardly anyone could be bothered to rebel against it!!!!! And yes, I have a feeling that quite a few people here are not like that, so when I say people I mean like people in general. Therefor I made the decision years ago to leave my smartphone at home when ever I can or keep it down in my bag...because there is no way that I am going to be yet another hunched back and brainwashed looking idiot in public!!! That was one of my thoughts of the day on this good Friday!!!!!

Honey

Chris Holmes - Let It Roar

Robber

I think, I know what you mean. I am not very keen on Volbeat either. There is just something about Michael Poulsen's vocals that I cannot stand. I remember him and his pre-Volbeat band, Dominius and to be honest, his voice was best suited for death metal. Volbeat just sounds weird...but as this is a thread about Volbeat, then any slagging them off on my part ends here'

Nightwish - Amaranth

That's an easy one...leather!!!! I love the look of leather, the texture of leather, and the smell of leather. Got two leather jackets...a quite fancy one and one that looks like it's been through a nuclear holocaust *lol* As a punk I used to wear a leather mini skirt too and in the late 1990's and early 2000's custom made leather jeans and top...I wore the things to death *lol* The leather jeans did wonders for my youth rheumatism because they kept the damp cold away from my left knee and were also good for walking about and sitting down in the forest. I have never been that crazy about denim, though. Currently on the lookout for a leather corset, so if this geenie can fix that, it would be great Talking about leather, makes me think of something closely related to it, too. Got a suddenly urge to listen to Vice Squad - Latex Love.

I just love Wardruna and you are right, the music is very calming, in fact so calming that I listen to Wardruna when doing yoga. Would love to see them live one day.