Re: How Metal Affects You
Metal for me is an exorcism of my own inner demons. Sometimes my warped mind is struck with some of the most vile defected psychotic visions, thoughts and desires and all I want to do is express my rage and frustration through violence. In a whim I can go from being happy and content in resolution that all life is connected through a harmony of atoms and cells and stardust and in an instant that switches to a completely sincere hatred of all humanity and worldwide genocide is justifiable in my mind. However when I am listening to metal I am in some psychotic stasis of spiritual, mental and even sexual cleansing. For example when I listen to the album Enthroned Darkness Triumphant by Dimmu Borgir I get entranced with a wave of emotions analogous to a Pentecostal prayer session. The lyrics of the songs are genuine sincere prayers of adulation for the archetype that we call Satan. That adulation and praise funnels all the conflict and shit that is plaguing my soul, it channels the energy of rage which is clouding my rational judgment and preventing me from achieving happiness. It transforms that into a positive energy. When I listen to Ride the Lightning by Metallica it makes me face some traumatic experiences in my life, and through reciting the lyrics and enjoying the music I deal with the issues that I would otherwise repress. It becomes a cathartic experience. And that is why love metal, it allows me to deal with my own bullshit in an entertaining and yet confronting and brutally honest way.