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52 minutes ago, GoatmasterGeneral said:

Mind over matter. Works for me. My theory is that all the aches and pains take a lot of people by surprise in their early to mid 40's. But once you accept that that's just the way it's gonna be from now on and realize you still have another 30 -40 years of this shit to go yet (god willing😜) you kinda get used to it, and then put it out of your mind and just go on living your life.

Let me ask you a question Navy. Was the loss of dorsiflexion (yeah I had to google it) due to radiation or some other by product of your bout with cancer? Or was it an old sports injury, or is this just something anatomically corrupt about you that you've always had? Just curious because when my wife had radiation treatment on her axillary area in 2012 it left her with limited mobility in her left arm. Even 3 years later she couldn't raise it up higher than paralell to the ground. It also left her left breast unable to produce milk so when she had the baby she was only able to nurse him on her right side. 

Big ass tumor on the right lumbar nerve at L5. Left me very little movement in the musculature of my right leg from the calf, ankle, and top of my foot. Chemo got the fucker, but once the damage is done to the nerve, it doesn't heal. Now it's just a lump of non-conductive scar tissue. Had a similar smaller tumor on the left, one in the right brachial nerve (that hurt like a mother fucker), and 4 tiny ones in the brain stem. Left leg is mostly numb, but didn't have as significant damage. Others left no damage at all. Funny how that works. Sounds like she had some nerve damage too which is understandable considering the radiation. That's just burning the cancer from the inside and quite usually leaves scar tissue and loss of function/sensation.

I say numb, but that's not exactly true. I can still feel pain and my feet are hyper sensitive. Can't stand for anyone to touch my feet. Takes a lot of effort to wear socks and shoes. If it weren't for the regular doses of GABA analogues (similar effect as alcohol), I probably couldn't not could walk. Neuropathy is a bitch.

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17 hours ago, navybsn said:

Getting old sucks indeed. I'm thinking I need to focus on more flexibility than solely strength and/or aerobic training. Not sure I want to go full yoga just yet, but being a bit less stiff would be nice.

Holy shit Navy, of course I new you were a cancer survivor. Much respect for you. 

Just remember, I've got 10 years on you youngster. Funny you mention yoga. Been doin' it for years to fix my body and I just started with Yoga with Adriene who apparently is the number 1 YouTube Yoga channel. I think she's pretty legit. 37 years old, kinda cut and has a petty extensive background in yoga and anatomy study which is what I want. So, I've been doing her 30 day sort of start up program. Today was day 6 for me-core work. Very user friendly. This particular series is just 30 minutes per session. 

 

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1 hour ago, markm said:

Holy shit Navy, of course I new you were a cancer survivor. Much respect for you. 

Just remember, I've got 10 years on you youngster. Funny you mention yoga. Been doin' it for years to fix my body and I just started with Yoga with Adriene who apparently is the number 1 YouTube Yoga channel. I think she's pretty legit. 37 years old, kinda cut and has a petty extensive background in yoga and anatomy study which is what I want. So, I've been doing her 30 day sort of start up program. Today was day 6 for me-core work. Very user friendly. This particular series is just 30 minutes per session. 

 

I'll give that a whirl. Better than doing nothing.

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Man Navy, that amount of nerve damage sounds harrowing. That's a horrible loss. My wife has nerve damage from a botched epidural and I've had a herniated L5 disc since I was a teenager, nowhere near what you're dealing with... Can say that some light yoga daily helps a lot with mobility though, I feel a lot better when I keep up with it.

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2 hours ago, FatherAlabaster said:

Man Navy, that amount of nerve damage sounds harrowing. That's a horrible loss. My wife has nerve damage from a botched epidural and I've had a herniated L5 disc since I was a teenager, nowhere near what you're dealing with... Can say that some light yoga daily helps a lot with mobility though, I feel a lot better when I keep up with it.

Eh, it could be worse. A little feeling is a fair tradeoff for staying alive. 9 years as of Tuesday. Just try to remind myself of how lucky I am to be here and still able to move at all. Couldn't walk or stand when I first got out of the hospital, so being able to do anything past that is fortunate.

Nerve damage is just the worst. There really isn't a decent way to treat it or keep it under control. Not to mention that it's impossible to explain to anyone who isn't experiencing it. There's good days and bad days, but like someone said earlier, you just accept it and learn to deal.

The brain fog from all of the chemo is probably more frustrating. 28 days out of 30 I feel like I'm working with an out of focus camera lens. Seems to affect my ability to communicate the most. The meds I take to keep the neuropathy tolerable don't help. I'm really not as stupid as I think I come across most days, but being able to put together coherent thoughts is challenging at times.

Lately, I think I'm having another lovely sequelae to treatment. Lost 30# (that I can't really afford to lose) in a rather short time unintentionally. Just can't eat much without getting nauseous. Scans were all good except some thickening in the large intestine. Probably some form of irritable bowel. I've no doubt it's related to the chemo. Side effects from that stuff can take years to present. Having a scope in a month or so to investigate.

So in short, fuck cancer. Fuck it with a rusty spiked bat.

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Suffering with toothache today.  Why is there no middle-ground with this shit?  Either mild ache or full blown "AAARGH MY HEAD IS EXPLODING" levels of pain.  Entirely my fault, dumbass that I am should have gotten the tooth looked at when I noticed the filling had dropped out last year.  Sufficiently dosed up on Ibuprofen now so hopeful of sleep tonight.

£160 just to get through the door at the dentist this Thursday and no option to do anything other than private.  I expect a bill nearer to £500 when I am done.  They made me complete various online forms today and they were asking me do I have worries about looking old and getting wrinkles?  Nope, just want to avoid a gum infection and needless pain in my jaw if that's possible.  No botox needed here, jeez!

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Isn't hindsight a wonderful thing. "I should have done something about this back when..." I did the same with my teeth years ago, ignored one problem, then ignored another problem and then when the problem got too much to ignore I was thinking, "if only you'd done this earlier." The worst problem is that I did it more than once!

Your dentists do botox as a part of fixing teeth? Damn, it's bad enough they cause so much pain, let alone telling you you're ugly but for a price they can fix it.

 

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My wife does Botox regularly. I tell her not to because a) she's gorgeous and b) I don't care about wrinkles. But it makes her happy and she doesn't complain about my music and expensive hobbies, so I don't push it. Drew the line when she did a lip filler thing however which was fortunately temporary. I can live with tattoos and even piercings, but fillers and whatnot go a bit too far.

Botox is used successfully for a number of conditions medically. Migraines being the top reason and it gives good results. Also used for things like overactive bladder, neck spasms, palsies, and even cross eyes. Never heard of it being used in a dental capacity though.

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We are soon going to get hammered by a storm front that has been causing flash flooding and strong winds across the state this morning. It's as muggy as hell but thankfully the heat has dropped down a bit and we are only in the mid 20's, we are still going for 35 with more storms due later in the day. As bad as they could be these storms are nothing compared to what places in South Australia copped last week which broke 100+ year old records in many places and has effectively cut off both road and rail to many outback towns.

 

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13 minutes ago, KillaKukumba said:

We are soon going to get hammered by a storm front that has been causing flash flooding and strong winds across the state this morning. It's as muggy as hell but thankfully the heat has dropped down a bit and we are only in the mid 20's, we are still going for 35 with more storms due later in the day. As bad as they could be these storms are nothing compared to what places in South Australia copped last week which broke 100+ year old records in many places and has effectively cut off both road and rail to many outback towns.

 

Bust luck weathering the storm Killa! Hang in there. 

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On 1/25/2022 at 11:46 PM, navybsn said:

My wife does Botox regularly. I tell her not to because a) she's gorgeous and b) I don't care about wrinkles. But it makes her happy and she doesn't complain about my music and expensive hobbies, so I don't push it. Drew the line when she did a lip filler thing however which was fortunately temporary. I can live with tattoos and even piercings, but fillers and whatnot go a bit too far.

Botox is used successfully for a number of conditions medically. Migraines being the top reason and it gives good results. Also used for things like overactive bladder, neck spasms, palsies, and even cross eyes. Never heard of it being used in a dental capacity though.

Seems a lot of dental practices here offer botox and other cosmetic treatments as a side-line.  I haven't seen any offering it for medical conditions.  I caught a current affairs show the other night and it was about victims of "botox gone bad!".  One young lady was having continued issues with a burst blood vessel after having botox injections in her lip - and I quote - that she got "done in someone's kitchen!"

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Sitting in my office thinking about what to have for lunch and I look out toward the garden and there's a fucking cow eating my cucumbers. There is a reason we call the yard cattle Freezer Meat but sometimes they just seem like they are in a hurry to become their name!!

Looks like I'm fixing a fence after lunch.

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3 minutes ago, KillaKukumba said:

Sitting in my office thinking about what to have for lunch and I look out toward the garden and there's a fucking cow eating my cucumbers. There is a reason we call the yard cattle Freezer Meat but sometimes they just seem like they are in a hurry to become their name!!

Looks like I'm fixing a fence after lunch.

For a cucumber like yourself it must be extra threatening, my sympathies.

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On 1/26/2022 at 11:34 AM, KillaKukumba said:

I don't think our medical regulators in this country would allow botox for non medical reasons, to be done in dentist surgeries. I know we have some rules about what medical professionals can and can't do but never seen a botox dentist so no idea if it's a thing here.

 

Cosmetic dentistry is a thing and I guess some will swing onto the dark side and venture into other cosmetic procedures. As the recent television exposé showed cosmetic 'medicine' is very poorly regulated here. It's caveat emptor, but as ever, how is the poor emptor to know. Insiders - like me -  know who and what is legit and what's not but god help the rest of yers.

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55 minutes ago, Thatguy said:

Cosmetic dentistry is a thing and I guess some will swing onto the dark side and venture into other cosmetic procedures. As the recent television exposé showed cosmetic 'medicine' is very poorly regulated here. It's caveat emptor, but as ever, how is the poor emptor to know. Insiders - like me -  know who and what is legit and what's not but god help the rest of yers.

I knew it was a thing, just didn't know it was for anything, I thought it was for things like facial damage via accident where the dentist is already balls deep in someone's face an a little bit more wouldn't matter. I've always thought people had to go to the Bali to get their cut price boob job with their wisdom teeth extraction. :)

To be honest I don't really need to know the legalities of botox via dentist because there aint no way I'm asking my dentist for a check up and some botox. With what he charges for things no one could afford his botox anyway!!

 

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First, to echo an earlyer sentiment, fuck cancer. My wife's brother is fighting it now, and I sure hope he survives.

Two random ass things:

Does anyone else use nasal snuff? I've gotten into it recently and it's really fun. It's impossible to find in New England so I have to order it from England. I've heard that It's much more popular in Europe than it is here.

Does anyone else know of/follow the antics of Chris Chan?  This person is a bizarre tragicomedy that will leave you bewildered but fascinated. For those that dare, watch the Chris Chan comprehensive history documentary on youtube, or check out https://sonichu.com/cwcki which is an entire encyclopedia dedicated to this person's incomprehensible shenanigans. They are right now siting in jail for raping they're senile 80 something year old mother. Good lord.

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On 1/28/2022 at 8:37 AM, Parker said:

Does anyone else use nasal snuff? I've gotten into it recently and it's really fun. It's impossible to find in New England so I have to order it from England. I've heard that It's much more popular in Europe than it is here.

 

Is this a euphemism for cocaine?

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