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Sisa Belial

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  1. Congratulations! Are there any pictures anywhere on the forum?
  2. Borrowed my bondage bad and still hasn't returned it... Which reminds me, I haven't seen his misses since either...
  3. Sorry I haven't been active the last few weeks... Had a shit storm thrown at me which unfortunately has not come to an end yet... I've been hiding away at home refusing to see or talk to anyone any more than absolutely neccesary... Combination of after xmas depression, bad health and people doing my head in... Plus had a load of orders to finish, finally got my guitars back too so I haven't been bored. I'll won't stay away this long again cause I kinda missed it here... What did I miss????
  4. As an ultimate xmas hater I found it more than reasonable to go on the piss xmas eve... Woke up xmas morning with my ulcer alive and kicking again... Sigh... Being in the dog house is worst when it's your own body putting you there...
  5. My daughter is bringing me to see Star Wars tonight and I can't wait! I'm being treated to the cinema by my own kid! Yay
  6. I'm not in the UK lol! ^ Has a poster of Harry Styles above his bed and manhandles himself while whispering sweet nothings to Harry
  7. Xmas is a charade and I despise it and everyone knows I do. I participate only as much as absolutely necessary for the kids and everyone can else can fuck off. I give what I can throughout the entire year for those few I care about, I don't want anything nor do I give anything.
  8. Is seriously addicted to Alabama Hotpocket...
  9. Quiet because I'm hungover (yes, I know, don't give out to me, it was worth it!)
  10. Has accounts on several porn sites only to leave comments pretending to be one of the parents and expressing disappointment...
  11. Trying to get my head around things.. Not liking these emotions I am feeling... Emotions don't suit me and I hate feeling all mushy...
  12. Always demands to watch Annie while playing monopoly
  13. feeds his dog peanut butter in a way that is generally frowned upon
  14. Having one of those days where I need to constantly remind myself that murder is illegal... Just can't get over how petty and low and vindictive some people are...
  15. That isn't a lie, I'm known for bar fights. ^ wears a pink tutu to bed every night while snuggling up with his my little pony soft toy
  16. Sounds a bit like my house when I grew up, except my stepdad was also a violent drunk. It really is down to your mother to remove this abusive person from your premises but as she fails to do so, there is very little you can do apart from trying to stay out of the house as much as possible, keeping your head low while you are home and start saving up money. I could suggest doing a few things around the house to help out that you weren't asked to do but if he keeps picking fights, your good intentions might be misunderstood or used against you. He doesn't sound like the kind of person you can sit down with and explain how his behavior is affecting everyone else there. Just know that even though you feel powerless and you can not change the situation, you do have power over how much you let it control you. This mans issues are not with you, they are with himself. People who are abusive, verbally, mentally and physically, have issues with themselves that they project on to others and sometimes pass on to others too. Don't allow him to do that. Know that when he get's angry and fights break out, and puts you and your brother in the center, that it's not actually about you or your brother. Instead of getting angry or scared, take a mental step back and really look at him, who he is, (I don't mean stare at him, I mean critically look at him in your mind while he is there shouting and spewing his bile). I did that when I lived at home, seen him for the pathetic, insecure, troubled poor excuse of a man he was and it got me over my fear for him. He couldn't mentally break me because I seen him for what he was.
  17. Sisa Belial

    Dreams

    I had the weirdest dream last night. I'm in bed with this guy I like and (don't be worried) we are cuddled up together and talking for hours and hours, somehow by comparing stories we find out we both have some sort of implant in our necks. So I gently cut his implant out and then it's his turn to cut mine out, he is scared to hurt me and it takes some persuading to get him to do it, he does in the end but only because it had to come out and I couldn't do it myself. The implants were metallic, small and very detailed, shaped a bit like a worm. The feeling of relieve, freedom and rebellion was overwhelming. Now I am not bad at analyzing dreams but wtf????
  18. Mourning Beloveth-Ethnics of the Precipice
  19. Got Mournful Congregation- Book of Kings in this morning. Nuclear Blast FINALLY sent the mutual order myself and two of my friends made a month ago and it should be in tomorrow or Thursday. Can't wait! It's been so long I can't even remember what I ordered!
  20. LMFAO! I'd rather have metal arguments and listen to metal as much as I do than argue about playing my music at all...
  21. Off course he doesn't need to be metal. i's just that my ex wouldn't let me listen to my music and was always taking my cd's out of stereo to never be seen again, deleting music I had saved in the laptop and leaving my headphones on the floor on purpose so the dogs would eat them. I could only listen to music when he was away (he was unemployed) and every gig I wanted to go to that didn't include him (all metal gigs) would result in war and him not speaking to me for weeks before and after the gig. My band shirts would go 'missing' or he would 'borrow' them to go painting. And when he was drunk my music and appearance was a reason to pick a fight. When I finally got rid of him I promised myself to never let a man try to change me or come between me and my music again. I have actually been avoiding men all together and have refused dates etc for nearly a year (since we split). I know this guy is not my ex and I'm not really comparing them, I'm just terrified to end up with someone who hates my music and won't let me play it. I guess that is one of the main reasons I'm happy he is abroad. It all kinda caught me off guard tbh.
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