I know the feeling. I live in Montana. everyone thinks I moved here from California, and well, I sort of look like I do come from somewhere else. But, I have never been untrue to myself, so I just live quietly, and play the music I love. Being different from the pact is a blessing. in these times of most people having an "unrealistic sense of importance, I feel honored to stand alone! I guess what I am saying here friend is you are not alone, a freak, or weird in anyway. you have a passion, you honor it. it is as it should be. Be proud, I see a lot of people claiming to be passionate, but they are just giving lip service in the hopes of being heard. Sad but true.