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Cemetery Lust "Screams of the Violated" because I love my black thrash. Pretty good album from Hell's Headbangers Records.

Yeah it was weird when he died. He was not the one I was expecting to die first, I always thought it was going to be Kerry for some reason. Though, I only really like very early Slayer anyway. Show No Mercy up through Hell Awaits is my period for Slayer. Reign in Blood did not do anything for me and I never really listened to anything that they did after that because I feel like they "toned it down" a lot in regard to how over the top they initially were.

I'll have to look into finding those. I would definitely buy more Drudkh because in my opinion, this was a pretty good album but since it's a later one, I could understand how it might not be seen as being as good as earlier work (earlier work is usually always the best, as the artist is fresh and not yet burnt out from a recording career). At the moment, now that Drudkh is over with, I am listening to Graveland "Hour of Ragnarok". Out of the three Graveland albums I own, this is probably the best one because Darken put together an actual band to record it instead of doing it all by himself. It's definitely later era Bathory-worship though but that doesn't bother me at all because I don't own any Bathory material currently so I don't really have anything to compare it to. It's bombastic yes, but without being cornpone. They did a good job on this album and compared to Thousand Swords, the production is cleaner and the instrumentation a lot tighter.

I kind of understand what you mean. When you feel fear & hate, you feel alive and motivated to keep pushing on out of your hatred for whatever it is. Hate is a remarkably strong emotion and I feel it frequently still, but a lot of the time I simply do not feel anything because the meds for the most part, are doing what meds are supposed to do: flatten my extreme emotions & thoughts. A lot of my hatred is for people who try to tell me what I am and am not allowed to do, so that's so-called "authority" figures, government, and people in the media who dictate the proverbial "cultural agenda" that I am supposed to follow: what I am supposed to be listening to, reading, watching, etc. I hate mainstream culture with a particular vehemence, it could be argued that my hatred of mainstream culture is what has motivated me a lot lately in regard to things I say and do, but looking at it honestly, "doing my own thing" has been the largest motivator for me. I've never had a favorable view of people who try to tell me what to do, because I feel like "What gives them the right?" but lately it's been hard to even summon up hatred of these types because I realize that at the end of the day, none of them can really stop me from doing the things that I want to do (Listen to music, read books, and enjoy my free time). Like I don't want to commit crimes or kill people or anything, so the argument cannot be made that I have to be locked in a cage until I am "rehabilitated" (even though they tried to make that argument about a year ago and I narrowly avoided it). But just the fact that we live in a so-called "society" where some arbitrary "authority" figure can exercise power over me gets on my nerves and it is not something that I personally believe that I should have to tolerate so long as I am minding my own business.

I've always wanted to tour Eastern Europe/the former Soviet states. I'm fascinated by the Soviet Union, because it existed in my lifetime and then one day when I was about 5 years old, just ceased to exist anymore. I don't get to travel though, I don't have that kind of money or resources and since I have a criminal record I doubt I'll ever be allowed to leave the US just to go check a country out. I've always wanted to go to Ukraine and see Nokturnal Mortum and all the related bands though. Maybe someday I will, when all of this Covid19 crap is over and I have some money saved up.

Drudkh "A Furrow Cut Short" My first real outing with Drudkh. I know that there are probably better places to start like "Autumn Aurora" or "Microcosmos", but this was what Hell's Headbangers had to offer, so I picked it up. I like it thusfar. I am currently on the second disc, side C.

Panopticon "Social Disservices" This is a haunting and horrifying album. Some of the most disturbing sounding BM I've ever listened to in my life & the subject matter is about the shitty conditions of mental health treatment/"Social services" in the US, so it cuts close to home because I've been institutionalized before multiple times and I've experienced all of this shit firsthand (and not on the employee end of the spectrum like Austin did). Glad I ordered it, going to look into getting more Panopticon stuff in the future; particularly "roads to the north" & "Autumn Eternal" because I like how he's doing the Nokturnal Mortum folk thing but with Appalachian music instead of Slavonic music.

I'm thinking about how glad I am that I am home from work for the day and that my latest order from Hell's Headbangers came today. It was a real shitshow at work today (I worked 4am-1pm, was supposed to get out at noon but we were super slammed so I stayed until 1 to be a team player because I just got a raise yesterday). I have to go back tomorrow at 4am and it's going to be even more of a shitshow then, because Sunday mornings usually are since every old fart feels the need to go to McDonald's on Sunday morning for $0.96 coffee that they then complain about being "too expensive" (the fact that they're getting something for under a dollar in this day and age should cause them to thank their lucky stars). I'm also thinking about how glad I am that I am off on Monday, because I legitimately get worn out by this job after only 3 days on. McDonald's is probably one of the most difficult and stressful jobs I've ever worked, far worse than any construction job (but it's paying me more than I was making doing construction with my buddy). A lot of people think that it's an easy job, that they can do it, and maybe they did when they were young, but they didn't stick around to do it as a career because anyone who has done it knows just how stressful and difficult it really is, the lack of holidays, shit conditions of the work itself... I'm glad to have the job though because I went through about a year of being unemployed and loaded down with court program bullshit that made having a job impossible. At least I feel like I put in an honest day's work at the end of the day. Aside from money, that's all I can really ask for.

Destroyer 666 "Phoenix Rising" It came in the mail today along with my other records.

Water. Aside from coffee and Bang, that's all I ever drink.

It actually just came today, I'm listening to the Cemetery Lust album now (blackthrash). I'm going to save the Drudkh for later on tonight.

Well when I saw that Hell's Headbangers had Drudkh, I had to snap it up. It's not often that you find Drudkh albums around in the US. I got some other relatively rare stuff as well. Hells Headbangers has been on a roll lately with having great material for me to order.

Going back to the topic of From The Depths of Darkness, I like the compilation because it's interesting to hear cleaned up takes on classic Burzum material, but I think it would have been for the better had he just recorded an entirely new album.

I'm eating Haribo Twin Snakes gummies right now. I have a nasty Haribo habit because I'm a sucker for gummies. They're easily my favorite candies.

Burzum "Det Som Engang Var"

Aren't the majority of Drudkh's lyrics just taken from poems by Taras Schevchenko and other Ukrainian poets? Like they don't even write their own lyrics is what I mean, they just take poems that were already written and put them to music? I currently have a Drudkh album coming in the mail: A Furrow Cut Short. I'm really looking forward to it getting here.

Burzum "Filosofem"

Dimmu Borgir "Spiritual Black Dimensions"

I'm having vegetarian shepherd's pie for dinner tonight (because my mom doesn't eat meat for some lame reason). We're making it with fake beef crumbles, but it will probably still be good. Usually the stuff with the fake beef still is pretty good and it doesn't require you to drain off fat or worry about food poisoning because the crumbles cook so quickly.

Is drunk driving as big a problem over there as it is here in the US&A?

I like the main riff to the song Ball Tongue & I was into the Issues album as a teen, but I never really got into Korn because I find Jonathon Davis, a guy with a tattoo that says "HIV" to be really whiny and edgy in his lyric writing. I do respect Fieldy though. He's pretty good for being a Nu-metal bassist.

You can booze at 18 in Oz?

Dimmu Borgir "Stormblast" (2005 rerecording)

He has electricity because he makes really cringey videos where he tries to argue that he's not a White Nationalist and he's got a computer and obviously electricity to power synths for his more recent offerings, but his house looks like a shithole. There are panes of glass missing on the windows, it's actually really depressing to see what his life is like & I was kind of shocked when I first started watching his material. One time he showed a royalty check and it was for like $6000 US, but that many people cannot possibly be buying Burzum albums and merch because Burzum is not really the easiest black metal to listen to (Easier than Darkthrone, but still). I know that I have like five albums and a shirt, but he sells shitloads of different merch-- backpacks, mugs, hats, shirts-- all sorts of stuff emblazoned with the word Burzum and art from the albums. He's also written some kind of dry books about paganism. I had three of them and then ordered another one for my buddy one Christmas because he's a guy who likes Burzum specifically because of the notoriety. I just don't know how he is able to support himself off of any of that unless he's got a really high-royalty deal for both his merch and his albums. He's got to do something else, or be getting welfare from the French government (which would be abjectly fucking hilarious to me, but I doubt it).

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