Sardonicist

I have hobbies, bible studies are one of them. 

Decrepit Birth - Polarity. The last time I listened to this I hated it? Today it sounds fine fine fine. I'm going to listen to the music that I own. Fuck trying to improve my death metal collection or refine my tastes just to feel less generic. 

The way I do not hate myself. 

1. Describe how I am to myself, then see how I am as right.

2. Describe external expectations on me, disdain them, see that they are wrong. 

How I am is right, what they expect is wrong. Peers, parents and society are wrong, how I am is right. 

I don't have a soul.

I don't have a spirit. 

Spirituality is wishful thinking. 

Satan is a mythical character that inspires a lot of good music, and no longer has any further significance in my life. 

In the bible Satan and Yahweh are depicted as the same entity.  

1 Peter 5 8

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. (The devil is a lion?)

Revelation 12 7

Then war broke out in heaven. Michael and his angels fought against the dragon, and the dragon and his angels fought back. (The devil is a dragon?)

Job 4 9

By the blast of God they perish, and by the breath of his nostrils are they consumed. (Yahweh the dragon)

Psalm 18 8

Smoke rose from his nostrils;
    consuming fire came from his mouth,
    burning coals blazed out of it. (Yahweh the dragon)

2 Samuel 22 9

Smoke rose from his nostrils; consuming fire came from his mouth, burning coals blazed out of it. (Yahweh the dragon)

Hosea 11 10

They will follow the LORD; he will roar like a lion. When he roars, his children will come trembling from the west (Yahweh the lion)

Psalm 50 22

Repent, all of you who forget me, or I will tear you apart, and no one will help you. (Yahweh the lion)
 

So Satanists worship Yahweh and Christians worship Satan. 

Bible study and irony fix for the day. 

Slavething - Death Thing

Sugar Virus II - Wolf's Breath

Death Strike - Fuckin' Death

Cancerslug - Sassy For Satan

Deicide - In The Minds Of Evil

Inquisition - Bloodshed Across The Empyrean Altar Beyond The Celestial Zenith

Die Gruwel - The Horror

47 minutes ago, GoatmasterGeneral said:

Have never been able to tolerate Deicide, but I've been trying again recently with them. In the last few days I've listened to their first three albums, the S/T debut twice. Think I'm making some wee bit of headway, I'll no longer say I hate them, but I still think there are dozens if not hundreds of better death metal bands one could listen to in my estimation. Don't understand these people who'd put them among their top 3 death metal bands.

Same goes for Morbid Angel, although I've officially given up trying to get into them. Wasted far too many hours of my life listening to their records that I can't fucking stand. I've had to accept that they just don't do anything for me and they never will. Like I have with Pantera.

I became one of those annoying old people that listen to the same few cliches continuously all the time. I used to hate those people. 

Therion - Lepaca Kliffoth 

Inquisition - Nefarious Dismal Orations. I'll have to make some Pantera Inquisition AC/DC mixtapes. Definitely love the Ancient Monumental War Hymn track. The song title Where Darkness Is Lord and Death the Beginning is an insightful, descriptive phrase for my activity. 

A Boy and His Dog (1975). Was recently recommended to me, excellent post apocalyptic action/humour. 

Deicide - In The Minds Of Evil

Deicide - Overtures of Blasphemy 

Step To Freedom - ST

3 hours ago, GoatmasterGeneral said:

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Step to Freedom S/T Russia, I think I play this one almost every day. Can't get enough of their rage driven stenchcore.

A Step To Freedom that I didn't know about, instant purchase. 

3 hours ago, JonoBlade said:

Alas, not really. In the last decade I've only done studio projects. Before that MW did play live, but pretty rarely. I always found organising gigs in London to be a massive ball ache compared the old days in Wellington when it was much easier.

I'd get back into playing live in a heartbeat if I had guys close enough to jam with regularly. The guys in my bands are spread over a hundred mile radius (or intercontinental) which is just enough to make it a hassle.

Bring on zero latency internet jamming!

Perhaps the one shining regret I have in life is not playing live enough. It makes one a wayyy better player/vocalist.

Monsterworks performed more than once at The Stomach in Palmerston North right? I was there. 

I found joy, pleasures and excitement through negative thinking and pessimism.

All problems solved. 

Right now the track is Undir Blodmana by Audin. Icelandic Black Metal is good stuff, if I was going to buy some 2023 music it would be some Iceland Black metal, but that which I already own is enough, I mean I can be content listening to AC/DC, Pantera and Deicide all day, but I have hundreds more bands and when these Iceland black metal songs come up, the ones I already own, it's just like hearing them for the first time, every time as it is, so what is the point is endlessly acquiring new Iceland black metal? 

All problems solved. 

Understanding that life offers nothing. Only children find new and interesting things. Adults have seen, done and heard everything, there is no novelty left. Of course metal would turn out to be boring. 

Expecting to enjoy anything is the mistake. Expect everything to be boring, expect to be bored, expect nothing, then be pleasantly surprised that actually I am enjoying these sounds. 

Other than fresh black coffee, I don't use drugs any more. I am not in an altered state. I am committed to maintaining normal human consciousness. I did use drugs so that I could enjoy music, because I expected to enjoy, because I was taught that life is for enjoying, or enjoying is good and boring is bad. I was stupid, immature and a slow learner. A human adult is bored and unsatisfied. There is nothing special about consciousness. 

Negative thinking and negating pleasure is key. My mind is blown by metal music through no expectation. 

Headphones still suck. 

Black Metal. Iceland. 

Árstíðir lífsins - Hermalausaz

https://arstidirlifsins.bandcamp.com/album/hermalausaz

On 9/27/2017 at 1:43 AM, MacabreEternal said:

 

Yep my expectations of them aren't stratospheric (with a music library full of the likes of Portal, Gorguts and Ulcerate I sometimes...

Always Portal, Gorguts and Ulcerate, why does no one ever mention Gigan? 

I am monolingual, but I can watch movies with subtitles. 

I watch The Day Of The Beast last night, this rap metal song was on during the credits. 

Def con dos - El Dia De La Bestia

Greyhound (2020) is non stop action war movie without a dull moment. 

For me as a child Das Boot was amazing. 

Fury (2014) is a good one. 

Cross of Iron I can watch every couple of years. 

Pantera will hold a prominent place in my listening agenda for the rest of my life. I have zero time or interest in anything influenced by Pantera. Like I would rather listen to Transylvanian Hunger 10,000 times than listen to a new low fi black metal album. 

Black Sabbath without Ozzy, I don't like any of it. 

With a possible exception, I may give Dehumanizer a few more listens. 

It is not just the absence of Ozzy, to me the music became boring after Ozzy's departure.

Infinite growth is possible if humans can mine asteroids, the moon and other planets. 

The physicists seem to be failing us. 

I don't believe humans have been to the moon at all, if they could have done it with decades old technology they would have gone back to exploit resources by now. 

Words and phrases don't have singular meanings. Metalheads use brutal to describe the music. So a brutal way of life is simply a person who listens to allot of brutal music.

Life is brutal for everyone, life is suffering, take away emperors, monarchies, wars, we have new problems to deal with. Marriages, raising children, watching the news and stuff is brutal. Dead1 is not fake as Dead1s financial situation with his house and wife's spending habits sounds brutal to me, he could be writing a manosphere blog. 

People are fake, we don't know what reality is or what we are, but metalheads are not faker than other humans. Personally I feel perfectly aligned with the themes of extreme metal, everyone fantasizes about the destruction of whatever they perceive threatens their survival. The inner world of a human contains unrestricted power and violence. Some people exploring this stuff does not cause a requirement for them to do it for real, this is literalist, religious thinking. If there are people who are pretenders it is the ones that pretend that they don't have any darkness in them at all. Metalheads are less fake than these types. 

It is totally legitimate for anyone to express their inner darkness in artform. That listening to Cannibal Corpse but not hammer smashing someone's face for real means that metalheads are fake is a retarded assertion in my opinion. The usual free speech argument for extreme metal and other media is that we will enjoy this stuff for entertainment and not do it for real.

In The Sopranos, Tony Soprano goes around beating the crap out of people while always talking about family values and keeping children safe. 

34 minutes ago, Dead1 said:

Joining ISIS or the Ukrainians is certainly not conformism, especially in our consumerist society.  I'm not talking about joining the US or British or Belgian army for a career.  I'm talking about joining groups in high intensity wars.

Survival instincts means avoiding high risk activities.  It is against the natural order to deliberately expose oneself to increased risk.

 

If your environment allows you to slosh around in comfort with minimal exertion of energy with a full belly, natural instincts will mean you will embrace that life, not buy a ticket to Syria and join some jihadi group getting carpet bombed by the Syrian air force. 

 

Joining the military is no longer conformist behaviour in many demilitarised western consumer societies.  Here in Australia but also from what I've read in Europe and north Asia, military careers are not seen as best choices.  It's viewed as something poor people do.  It's even becoming like that in Israel with massive growth in conscription exemptions or even flat out avoidance.

It's becoming the same in the US - middle class comfy kids don't join the army. 

 

As for extreme sports, again they violate natural instincts.  Climbing Mt Everest or doing crazy aerial stunts on a skateboard violate natural instincts.

 

You're not just existing.  The fact you're using a computer or some sort of electronic device shows you are in fact a willing participant in our consumer society and have some disposable income.  Compared to your ancestors, you live like a king.

 

Save some homeless, nearly all of us westerners live comfortable conformist consumer lives.  We aren't hungry, we have homes over our heads, we generally aren't oppressed or persecuted, generally own a car and we have some money left over for entertainment etc.  We live in largely non-violent pacifist societies where threat of war or ethnic violence is so low.  Famine and disease (even COVID) are things that barely effect us (remember in the old days when 50% of women died in child birth and even a toothache could kill you.).

This is so far removed from the historical norm and even the norm in many other places.

 

This is why doing something like climbing Mount Everest or joining ISIS/Ukrainian Foreign Legion or to lesser degree disconnecting from society to become some sort of isolated prepper is indeed non-conformist.

It is certainly a "brutal way of life" compared to just listening to heavy metal in the comfort of our homes.

As a long term welfare dependant New Zealander I do consider myself the 1%. I agree that joining ISIS would make a brutal way of life, but ISIS is a conform or die system. Non-conformity as a stand alone principle requires the liberty to not conform. People are shallow and they want to bore each other with tall tales of their exploits, this is the only motivation for the masses who climb Everest now days.

Nature fills everyone with dissatisfaction. Pleasure only comes from things that increase survival prospects. A conqueror gets rewards. Conquer a mountain, win wealth and women, this is the mountaineers motivation, conforming to nature. 

Contemplation of death is a legitimate activity for all humans, we all die no matter how safe we are. Metalheads are not hypocritical or fake for having fascinations with morbid imagery but living an unexceptional, boring life. I don't believe that anyone who joins ISIS or the Ukrainian foreign legion becomes a more legitimate, less shallow human either.

Understanding the brutality of life vs not understanding the brutality of life makes a slight difference. 

14 hours ago, Dead1 said:

A mythical creature then.  At some stage your body just doesn't do that kind of punishment.  

I can't really mosh for most than 1-2 songs these days before the body says no.

 

Also most metalheads are kinda nerdy weak folk or at best normal types. 

IMO metalheads are certainly not "uncouth psychopaths dedicated to a brutal way of life".  In my opinion that goes to people who openly embrace violence - the prepper living in a compound with a tens of thousands of rounds, the gang member willing to do a drive buy shooting or beat someone up, the meth addict who snaps at the slightest provocation, the war tourist who goes to Ukraine or Syria to fight a war because they want to experience that or even the western born and raised Islamist diehard who joins ISIS etc etc.

 

Or the activist risking arrest and life by chaining themselves to equipment, risking getting murdered by corporate thugs in the third world or playing chicken with Japanese whalers.

Hell I'd even say the extreme sports nutter who put life and limb at risk to climb Mt Everest, base jump off a skyscraper or do other insane shit most of us only see on video screens at gyms.

Basically anyone who gives up on modernity's safe and comfortable existence in favour of more primal existence where there is a threat to their life.

Most metalheads don't even come close to that. 

In fact most metalheads now frown upon the murderous and violent carnage of the early black metal scene or the inherent violence of the early hardcore scene or even the political angst of hardcore and some thrash.

Metalheads festoon themselves with the paraphernalia of death and violence, whilst living safe little conformist lives.

I certainly am not a hessian.  I love metal but am ultimately a sad little conformist myself.

 

 

War and high risk activities are for conformists. They conform to nature and society. Be all you can be. Go get it. Survival drives, bragging potential, increasing status, Nietzschean or Tommy Robbins, you just described all the worlds most conformist people that exist. Soldiering has always been considered a conformist path. In Sven Hassel novels the people who just want to exist, free of the burden of  war and ideology are portrayed as the non conformists. Now if we have the privilege of being able to just exist and we make the most of it, this makes us conformists? 

I couldn't care less if I am conformist or not, but object to the notion that climbing mount Everest makes a person a non-conformist, seems more like if a person is rich, they are expected to climb mount Everest, or demonstrate their power in some way so they can brag about it.