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  1. Scorpions Motley Crue WASP Dokken Queensryche (not exactly a glam/hair band imo but close enough) Winger Skid Row
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    The new full-length drops on October 18, called The Infernal Pathway. They've also released another new song from the album: All three songs they've released so far from this album sound completely different from each other and I really don't know what to think. The only one that I really enjoy is "Through Eyes of Stone". Not that the other two are bad - not at all - but they're really channeling their inner thrash influences on some of this stuff, seriously...
  3. Exactly. And even when I'm not at work, it's like I have to live my life by a much stricter set of rules than everyone else. People are allowed to scream at me, swear at me, call me names, tell me I deserve to get shot, physically intimidate me, over the most trivial bullshit, but god forbid if in my daily life something legitimate makes me upset to the point I make it known I am upset, if I raise my voice just a little, over someone harassing me in public, for example - oh, well then I am WAY out of line and just a crazy psycho bitch. It's like I'm not allowed to have any feelings whatsoever, but everyone else is allowed to have extreme emotions and behaviors. It's such a fucking double standard. Coworkers tell me "oh, you don't know what they might be dealing with in their personal life", as if that's an excuse for their behavior. I HAVE CHRONIC DEPRESSION AND PTSD BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN SHIT ON BY PEOPLE MY ENTIRE LIFE AND I STILL MAKE IT A POINT TO TREAT EVERYONE WITH A BASIC AMOUNT OF CIVILITY AND RESPECT. Even if I hate their fucking guts and want nothing to do with them. You can't honestly tell me, that someone is facing so much more hardship than I am, which could justify their disgusting behavior. Thank you. What bothers me most I guess is that I try so hard not to let it get to me, but my nervous system seems to somehow know when there is or could be an imminent threat to my safety and goes into a spontaneous, out of control fight or flight response. I have learned, time and time again, that yelling almost always precedes physical violence. People have stopped at nothing to physically attack me (not really at work, although I have had things thrown at me). But the fact that physical attack and bodily injury is very possible, frightens the hell out of me. I weigh 90 lbs. I fucking hate it. I've been trying to build upper body strength but it's like my frame just wasn't built that way. People attack me and seem to have zero fear of repercussions because in the past, every time it's happened, they just tell the authorities I did something to deserve it, or if they don't leave a mark, that I'm lying and made it up to ruin their lives or something, and the authorities always believe them. Yes there are cameras, but they'll just claim I said something to threaten them or antagonize them and they were acting in self-defense or something. And the authorities will still believe them.
  4. I'm really at the end of my metaphorical rope here. I have a bachelors degree, I did a year-long internship, I've done relevant volunteer work, I've been consistently employed in professional occupations for 3 years, and yet I cannot for the life of me get a job in anything but customer service. And it's getting to a point that work is making me physically and mentally ill. Look, I'm a child abuse survivor, and every time a customer comes up to me in an aggressive, hostile, or threatening way, screams at me, swears at me, calls me stupid because of misconceptions about my age, gender, education, personality, or anything else they feel the need to make me feel horrible and dehumanize me so much because they don't like the company's policies which I have no control over - I relive every abusive experience at the hands of my mother and father over and over and over again. I can write. I can use video editing software. I have a knack for photography. And yet because I've never had a job title with the words "public relations" or "communications" in it, that must mean I'm a fucking idiot who can't do anything except stand in front of a counter and smile while being dehumanized by 50 year old grown-ass adults with the emotional maturity of a spoiled 3 year old. Every job, no matter how basic, besides customer service roles, require some 3-5 years of experience. And apparently unless you've never done that same exact job before, your experience is not relevant, no matter how close it, no matter how many transferable skills you have, no matter how much you've busted your ass for zero compensation at unpaid internships, menial jobs at non-profits, and side gigs, all of that hard-won experience is worthless to them. I am convinced that I was born to suffer. It's the only real logical explanation I can come up with. Abuse survivor who can never escape abusive situations and has constantly be around abusive people to survive? The irony. And at the moment, I don't see it ever ending until I die. I'm really not a human being at all to anyone, am I?
  5. Blood Fire Death - Bathory
  6. Rainbow - Self-Portrait Iron Maiden - Revelations Scorpions - Bad Boys Running Wild Trouble - The Tempter Satyricon - Min Hyllest Til Vinterland Katatonia - Instrumental (from Discouraged Ones) Paradise Lost - I See Your Face 1349 - Through Eyes of Stone Queensryche - Another Rainy Night GWAR - Phantom Limb
  7. Satyricon - Dark Medieval Times
  8. Gorgoroth - Incipit Satan Ah...I always feel so much better when I listen to someone else besides myself incomprehensibly screaming their lungs out for a change...
  9. Queensryche - Rage For Order
  10. No, not really. Maybe for whatever reason these songs just do not affect me like a lot of their other work.
  11. Completely agree with you. My biggest issue with The Great Cold Distance is that it seems to lack a lot of lyrical themes I'm used to from these guys. The "darkness" kind of feels a little too safe and accessible, if that makes sense? Renkse's earlier lyrics are truly disturbing and evoke (or soothe, depending on who you talk to) some really troubling emotions in the listener; the band still does a pretty good job at creating that sort of mood, but I find the lyrical themes began to shift with that album. Also their later stuff feels more ambient, which isn't really a bad thing, but I do miss those heavier riffs that were present even on Tonight's Decision. Viva Emptiness is sort of a concept album to me. I can't remember if they ever called it that, but there's definitely a continuous narrative in the lyrics from song to song. In terms of songwriting, it has a few duds, but overall there's enough there to keep my interest. It's also backloaded, which is really annoying. There's some great guitar work in "Burn the Remembrance", "Walking By a Wire", "Complicity", "Evidence", and (my favorite) "Omerta", but then you're skipping half the album to get to them. From Last Fair Deal Gone Down, I love "Teargas" and "Help Me Disappear" (another song I still don't understand why they left off the original as a b-side) but otherwise there's not a whole lot from that album which is memorable to me. I would agree with you about the production on the albums which came after, though. A lot of newer music I just cannot bring myself to listen to because the production is way too clean, feels sort of plastic-y and unnatural. I can only think of maybe 2 or 3 bands off the top of my head who still sound organic on their most recent albums. When I have to struggle to tell the instruments apart because it's so damn compressed, we've got a serious problem hahaha.
  12. Depraved

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    @Benjaminc81 Sick poster. Love your story about them, although Frost setting the ceiling on fire immediately reminded me of the Station nightclub tragedy with Great White years ago. Would be like...the most metal way to die, though. (Btw Frost has one of the coolest autographs I've ever seen but it took me forever to figure out what Ravn's was supposed to be lol.) I'm impressed with the new single. "Dodskamp" did make me a tiny bit nervous, but "Through Eyes of Stone" kicks ass. Sick riffs, sick drumming, sick vocals. Hopefully they'll follow up their EP with a new full-length in the near future.
  13. Haha yeah that's why I told you. I would agree with your assessment about Viva Emptiness, though. In general, the later you go in their discography, the more everything becomes more...same-y sounding? Not that it's bad, but it gets to a point with all bands that they can only do so much. They do the shoegaze-inspired progressive death rock (or whatever you want to call it) thing quite well, but after Tonight's Decision I find myself skipping around. Last Fair Deal Gone Down does have its moments, but I've never really been able to connect with that album on a deeper level. Maybe I just haven't spent enough time with it. Also - what a fucking tragedy they left "Unfurl" off The Great Cold Distance. It's the best song from that album by a long shot. Can't say I particularly enjoy anything past that, though. Their last few albums have just felt too soft and/or formulaic to me. Like they've been continuously diluting their sound.
  14. Doing this list and being forced to rank them made me realize just how many bands I listen to, and it was really difficult to leave some out or choose between them. Not only that, having to explain why I like some of this stuff, I could almost tell you I have no idea haha, other than that in most of these cases especially nearing the top of the list, there is something in the music which speaks to me on a very profound level which perhaps transcends the conscious mind. I remember the first time I ever heard Katatonia. I actually got into them through Opeth, and hearing Brave Murder Day felt like I had finally found the music I had been looking for all my life. The way they express sorrow/despair/other difficult or extreme emotions...it's never come across as all "oh, woe is me", but instead there is a real honesty and maturity in it, even in the early days, which few bands can convincingly pull off. Never has it ever felt contrived or insincere. Don't even get me started on Nystrom's guitar work. Some of the most beautiful and instantly recognizable tones I've ever heard. Even their later material (say, after Tonight's Decision) is really good, despite being such a rabid fan of their early stuff. Although I must admit, Last Fair Deal Gone Down is one of my least favorite albums from them; among their later material, I much prefer Viva Emptiness.
  15. Lol why thank you! I have no life, so I just listen to a bunch of metal all the time. I have nothing better to do. Or rather, listening to metal, apparently, is my life.
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